This article is based on my definition of God. If you are someone who blindly believes without seeking any explanation then you might want to give this article a skip.
Have you ever tried to define something that you have no clue about? Well, I tried and in that quest, I was able to find what God is and figured out a way to define him. I found my God, not your's, not any government's nor of any temple authorities. He is without any doubt mine. Just mine. Here are the 5 Gods that I believe in. Before we get into it I would like to just give this disclaimer - if you want to know about them then read, if not just leave, I prefer humans over idiots anyways.
Let's get to it, shall we?
I met God for the first time and she taught me that some battles are better fought through silence. Sometimes silence speaks for itself and that, it is louder than any of my words. She made me realise that 99% of my work will go unnoticed and unappreciated. What she wanted me to learn was that one should not stop the work that they started just because it goes unrecognised. We work because it is our choice to do so and not because we had to and hence the recognition shouldn't be the main deciding factor. The thing is, I see her everyday preaching and doing the same. I have called this God ‘Amma’ a zillion times in happiness, sadness, surprise and confusion.
I met God again and this time he taught me what it means to be strong. He taught me the right definition of strength and courage. His life lessons to me were that bowing your head in front of someone does not mean defeat, tears do not mean weakness, screaming and raising your voice louder than others doesn’t make you are stronger or braver. He showed me that to love is to let go, for as a father he had to let me go so that I could fly high even though it nearly killed him to see me crash and burn a lot of times.
I met God for the third time and this time he wanted to teach me the lesson that I should never settle for anything less than what is best for me and that it was okay not be able to please everyone. He taught me that it wasn’t wrong for me to fight for want I want or for what I believe in. Hiding my emotions under a mask from people is not something that you should be ashamed of. Only a brother can teach you how to protect and love the people and things one cares about without making a big deal out of it.
I met God for the fourth time and this time it was at their favourite residence. This time they thought me the lesson that I do not need anything or anyone to live this life with a smile on my face and that happiness can be found in the smallest of things. They wanted me to know that nothing in this world is mine and stop complaining about the things that I don’t have for, I have more things to enjoy than three-fourths of the world. If these children in the orphanage can live a happy life without half the things and people to make them happy then, so can I.
I met God for the fifth time and she was the best God among all of them for she taught me the most valuable lessons. She was there when I made up lies and her advice for me was that it was okay to lie If I wasn’t ready to put forth the truth to everyone. She was there when I spoke the truth and took the brunt for things that weren’t my mistake, to begin with. She was there with me not only when I was happy, when I was proud, when I was confident, when I made major life choices but also when I was sad, when I was lost, when I had no confidence, when I cried myself to sleep, when I thought of giving up on everything. Wondering who she is and what she taught me? She taught me to love myself just the way I am and that love means to respect myself for the good and bad choices I made and will make, she wanted me to learn to forgive myself and move forward. My favourite advice of hers is to seek my own permission and no one else's. She is the God that is mine, she is one that resides in me and that is my happy place. My God showed me that the God I was seeking out has always been me. I am my God! Who is yours?
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